writing
Something I never had
Een schrijfsel. Gewoon. Zomaar. (Een beetje) fictie.
“Have you ever felt as if you lost something? Something you never had?
That’s how I feel sometimes. I feel as if I lost you. Even though I never actually had you. I always thought we could be something. But nothing ever happened. Was I wrong? Was there absolutely nothing going on between us? Was I the only one who felt it? No, I don’t believe that. I’m sure you felt something too. But nothing happened. Why?
I guess I realized too late that I liked you. That I liked you more than I thought I did. It took me some time to admit it to myself. And now it is too late. (Is it?) Now you’re out of my life. It really feels like I lost you. We don’t ever see each other anymore, we don’t talk anymore. It’s been so long since I last saw you or spoke to you. Still I keep thinking about you. About what could have been.
I never had you. And I guess I never will.
Why do I feel like I lost you?”
In other news: ik ga (heel origineel, I know) mijn 365-dagen project bijhouden op Tumblr, hierzo.